hElLo WeLcOmE tO mY wOrLd..I aM yOuR dIcTaToR!!

5:25pm: omg so i am one of the easiest ppl to enterain..my new ring tone is Baby Got back...i no i no a) great song! b) old but still great and c) soo flippen ME

i dunno why i find it soo great but my loser status is increasing by the moment for the simple fact that i am callen my cell just to listen to my ring tone..i no lame but i dont care!!!

i cant believe i didnt do this earlier

and done

BY THE WAY MY BDAY MONTH HAS OFFICIALLY STARTED PPL..AND MY BDAY IS NOW IN 13 DAYS and u no what that means!! PAARRTTAAYYY--well with the ppl that have made my list sry if u didnt...ur still loved though

and done #2
dictator

9:25pm: ok
so a lot has happened this past week..my last JSA competition of my high school career was this past weekend it was good and it gave me time to just hang out with karen and my other friends. My computers is supposely dying, though it is not even 2 years old. I had it reformated ( whipped out-fresh) and then i connected my ipod to it and it cleaned out my ipod=FREAKEN BAD THING!!!so now i have no music on my comp or ipod i dunno what im gonna do...--wow how materialistic do i sound right nowm, i apologize. So in the past couple days ive got a lot of shit from a certain person. All i have to say is this...NOTHING. I dont want to start more drama..i dont want an apology, i dont want anything but to be left alone and live out the rest of my high school with my friends. And to my friends that stood up for me, verbally and by writing..thanks i no u are trying to defend me but don't. im not trying to be mean im just sayen it just is gonna make it worse. Im over it i will be friends with whoever i want whenever i want and no one is ever going to tell me or try to tell me otherwise.


anyways

oo everyone wish my seany luck on his huge tennis toruney tom-whenever he loses down by san diego. GOOD LUCK HUN

passover is this sat and sundown..for all of u jews good luck keep it..can anyone say "Matzah"?

anyways im going to go--read..i like being a nerd..a hott nerd that is! oohh ya

dictator

8:48pm: where do you see yourself in 10 years?

where do you see me in 10 years?

answer, and re-post in your LJ. this could get interesting.....

stolen from chuckie!!! and Heather!!!

1:46pm: my weekend--full of happy times..bad times..getting my hotttt ass prom dress..getting clothes..hooking up..getting into fights..and wanting to beat some fucking whore down. "i dont wrestle i beat bitches up"--my motto from now on. im so over it though whateva--i have relized that some people are just not worth it..and the more i try to convince myself that isnt true the more i fail. And dictators dont lk to fail ppl. so im done. (to the person this is to--u no who u are--u can write all the bullshit LJs u want but there in no way gonna make all the people u have fucked over in ur lifetime be good towards u. Yes saying sorry is good..but there comes a point where that word "sorry" means nothing..and u passed that point years ago!

anways


SEAN SABAT I LOVE U AND IM SOO HAPPY WERE GOING TO PROM TOGETHER...and my new quote "i can do calculus but i cant read a pizza" i will exaplin later for those of u who want to no.

my prom dress=amazing..though i do wish i had bigger boobs..but its ok i still look fucken amazing and i dont care if u think my ego is too large..cuz well it is and i dont care. But its BCBG and it rocks my flippen world..anyways im off to do hw and take advil (hangover but i'll be fine)

love ya

and done

dictator

10:28pm: i just want to say..from my last post..

thank u rachel and karen for bringing me presents!!! i love my yoyo, black ppl. hair dye, choc. candy, my penis mint--yum!!--, and most of all my trojan condoms!! though..i still dont no why u bought me them..its not lk i need them! but thanks!

im out

dictator

8:19pm: happy spring break??
soo everyone everyone here is talking about how great their spring breaks' are and shit like that..which must be nice. And if i was in the position so say how great my break has been going ..i would-honest!..however..having bronchitis and tonsalitis will kinda put a damper on that thougt! and wait it gets better tom. i should find out if i have mono!! ooo ya..my life is great..i sorta forgot how my life feels when it is going so wrong...i mean minus the enormous physical pain of not being able to swallow food..water..or yes lets be grown ups here--saliva..minus not being able to communicate bc it hurts to speak..minus that i have been poked with needles, been to 4 doctors, 2 ERs, and have had a 104.2 fever. And i ask my doctors..right before they percribe me medicine (i am taking 8)what caused this..and they all say "stress." It's funny to me how as the last week of school, before break, i was studying for my "huge" econ test, doing my final dce..and ontop of that being a great! friend and helping 2 of my other friends with their dce..i thought hmm if i was in their shoes id hope someone would help me if i needed help--which occationally i do with papers. So i said sure i'll help no prb. (as i revised almost their entire papers) and by doing so stayed up until 2..3 in the morning every nite sund-wed. So as i thought i was doing what we jews call a mitzvot..i was actually just sqrewing myself over! And now..my last spring break of high school EVER i sit in my bed ..watch tv..and think about what all my friends are doing as i slowly take my 8 diff. types of medicine.


Though i was thinking today..as i went to go with my mom to get my paycheck cuz im feeling a lil better and im speaking more without it hurting..and my fever is gone..im sorta glad this happened..JUST BAD TIMING ...because it really has shown me how my friends are. As "cliche-ish" as that sounds. Friends, those whom i thought would at least come visit me, not even necc. see me bc i might have been contageous, but u no asked my mom if i was ok or something of that sort, friends who call me to see if im ALIVE, friends to see where the hell ive been..ya funny how those friends don't seem to exist here! I say it fine and whatever but it bothers me that i always seem to put soo much into my friendships and seem to get such a small percentage of that kindness back. And no im not saying that i give to get back, but it is some what redic. when u no ur friend is really sick and u do nothing to cheer them up..esp. if u live down the fucking street! I dunno i wonder how my friends in florida, even those who ive rarely spoken with over the year a 1/2 ive been here have called me more in that past 4 days then my closest friends here have. OOO and what really gets me ..lol wow is that one of my really good friends here..didnt even no..didnt even flippen realize i wasnt around..until yest. Until she asked another friend of ours--wheres B SHAFF? WOW after 3 days of not seeing me...when u knew i was around for break..u just then realized i wasnt around..u just then fucking said something?!?! are u shitting me?

I had forgotten how it feels to have ur heart basically ripped out and stepped on..thanks for reminding me!

And i no things will go back to how they were before..bc no one has the balls to say anything to me about it. And if i say something its just gonna be me..the one ..who is complaining that they didnt come see me on their break. And honestly i dont want to deal with that. I dont think i should have to.

And whether anyone is reading this, which if u are mad props cuz i no this is really long, i just thought i should write how im feeling..so whether u comment or not its cool-im just in a shitty mood right now.

im done

dictator

5:53pm: yest was bad..i was sick sick sick..i left school after 1st per. where i failed my King Lear Test. I was walking to the office and i thought i was gonna throw up-aren even jumped out of the way..so i went home..where i slept until 12ish.then i went to go down stairs to get some tea and i blacked out and fell down my backstair case. ( i have 2 staircases in my house if u didnt no). anyways yea i woke up a lil later at the buttom and my head hurt and i looked up and i saw the picture on the wall crooked so i knew i hit it..and now..now my knee hurts! anyways so then i went back to sleep until 3 when i woke up to go to work. ( such a bad idea) so i had a 2 hr. work sched. -i worked for an hour until i threw up in the bathroom..and then my boss told me to go home. so then i slept from 4:50- late..and then i woke up and then went back to sleep until 7 this morn. but now ..now im fine!! wooohooo i think i got the 24hr flu. anyways today

today was ok went to lunch with kar and glo i love free food at karens..

today more impt. was my mom on CSPAN soo proud--i bet ur ema wasnt on CSPAN..boo ya

anyways i have realized that econ is a fun class...having mrs stanley for a teacher makes it : long and boring.

VICE IS THIS SAT. WHERE B SHAFF WILL BE KICKING STECY IN THE DANCE OFF...ppl please remember that stecy and i are really good friends..so stop maken it seem that were not friends..but its okay cuz i am still gonna beat u hun.

and done

dictator

9:51pm: i wrote this for karen

karen
also know to B-Shaff as kar
has long hair,
doesn't know how to share.
She likes to drink and party
So you know shes gonna be horny
Though not as much as caitlin is..
We all know she is the bizz.

But now back to the one and only karen
The one who is gonna be yellen
To shop all day and all night long
While she is singing her lil rock songs
But dont you forget she spends her own money
Call her spoiled and she gets up on you hunny!

So this is the end of the B Shaff rap
Dont u know that i really am black

okay im done
dictator

6:50pm: tonight u thin is the 1st night ever that i truley realized how different my mom and i really are. I mean i always knew we were diff. for example she likes clothes and im lk ehh nudism is chill..and shit like that but tonight was def. the brink for me. I realized that although my mom is pretty chill like when it comes to my friends, and shit like that all the bad shit and her bitchyness overcomes anything good she has ever done. And to all of you who are reading this u might be thinking either a) all parents are bitchy or b) b shaff u sure do talk about ur mom a lot--so to answer u yes all parents are sometimes bitchy and yes i do talk about my mom alot...but its because my mom is the queen of bitches and im not even a princess. And therefore when i "see" her bitchyness it just reminds me how much of a lil person i am.

today was good i did hw helped tay with hw went to karens for a meeting about vice..it was chill--came home had some dinner it was good then my mom started screaming at me--yelled back got introuble went to my room..left my room went to the bathroom threw up --went back to my room and now im here. I have also realized in this experience per say how sensitive my tum tum is when im eating to yelling..cuz when im eating and yelling it just doesnt work out to well..just an fyi

sry if that was graphic for any of u ppl.

oo the new 50cent cd=AmAzInG


saw this amazing che guevara painting friday night in brentwood ( i think thats where we were) omg it was sooooo pretty i want it soo badly but im sure its a couple hundred-if not more.

my jaw really hurts i dunno why

oo i realized also ( i have realized a lot of shit today) anyways i realized that no one ever writes back on my posts..which is okay shows me that no one really takes me seriously..like if i said "i am not going to college" or "i am gonna run my moms suv off kanan with me in it" no one would really care/pay attention.-thats cool

i love mrs frank but she is seriously going crazy!!!

this weekend was great..party at USC with karen..the frat party theme was mardigras--i got beads from boys and i didnt have to flash them or anything they just gave them to me cuz im a hot mama--and bc i can dance lk no other..it was fun..though i dont think i have had more rum and cokes in my life--well so far atleast..this weekend i might be able to top it lol

kar i love sleeping with u : )

ok im done

dictator

9:49pm: so today was interesting..i went to school sorta sucked mrs. frank wasn't here that was sorta cool..such a pointless class but its cool the social part of it was fun. Went to work after school--was fun im getting to know the people there..there cool. Came home saw my mom and my sister ashley-- havent seen them since last friday bc they went to Vegas for Ashley's birthday --which is tom. by the way so if u no my sister and see her tom please wish her a happy birthday! anyways so i saw my mom and that was all fine..and then came "our talk." OHH MYY LORDY can we just say that i havent hyperventilated that much in well a month or so. (since the last of me and my mothers' "talk.") Anyways wow college sucks already the whole process sucks..and i think it sucks bc im doing it all by myself. I mean i love my parents to death i really do and i think their amazing ppl. and they have always set really high standards for me but i have come to the point where i just want to tell them to fuck off ( to their face) just so they can realize how upset i am at them ( really just my mom -since i dont really talk to my dad.) I have to just sit there and take ever stab she throws at me, because if i open my mouth i know it will just make it worse..and so i sit their trying not to show any emotion whatsoever..when all i want to do is cry. And have my mom understand that what i need is her to help me..and she won't! And she won't help me..her daughter...not because she can't and not because she doesn't understand how the process works..but because she doesn't believe i am making the best decision for me! And i don't think anyone can understand how that feels..because all of you have ur parents help and it seems that i am the only one whose parents wont help them..so yes while i have a scholorship to sf..i still have to fill out papers and get my parents financial shit intact and everthing else and though it doesnt seem that stressful it really really is..and its like i dunno my parents have always been the "cool ones." You know those parents--the ones that all your friends want to talk to and hang out with..and its like in the past 5 months all that has gone to shit..and my mom has been this completely scary person that i have never ever seen!! BAHHHHH life sucks sooo badly all i want to do is curl up into a little ball and go to sleep and wake up and have everything be taken care of for me...but then i think hmm well i am growing up and im gonna have to do it eventually..but then im lk ( cuz i have multiple personalities so i can talk to myself) why do i have to do it by myself?!-


sooo as i conclude my nervous break down #4..ooo yeah ..of this year..which by the way is 2 more then i had in total of last year. Which is weird bc i had SATs last year--which everyone who is anyone--of my friends--knows how stressed i was about that..anyways i off to do something i dunno yet..but thanks for listening to me vent..i appricate it

dictator

1:35pm: February?
Okay so i have been thinking that past week or so that it is February..and to most people if you say whats in Feb. they say Valentines Day! And yes they would be correct Feb. 14, as everyone knows, is Valentines Day. However the whole month of Feb. has been designated as Black History Month. I have realized people at Agoura High School, have seemed to forget about this! And yes we do not have a lot of black people at our school, but that doesn't make it okay for our soo prestigious ASB officals to do almost nothing at all for this month. I would have expected an announcement everyday for the whole month saying something new everytime, about a influential black person. It some what upsets me that we have a lot of power in our school and no one has done anything to inform most students that this month is a very power month. (as weird as that sounds). So i know that the 28th is the last day of the month..and it is also this monday! I propose that i..and hopefully some of you..do something to show that it is black history month. HMMMM sooo you might be asking yourself.."dictator what should we do"...and my repsonse to you would be "getting two poster boards..tieing them together and wearing them on top of our clothes..and writing stuff on them portraying black history month and the "great work ASB has done for the month."" --so i know a lot of my friends arent into doing that kinda of stuff but i was hopeing you get put away your scary feelings for 6 hours and just do it!

SO whose in?

dictator

8:35pm: will u be my friend?

5:44pm: okay so i no i just updated like 2 min ago but i forgot to write 1 thing...

DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY IDEAS FOR WHERE I CAN HAVE MY B-DAY PARTY???? I WANTED TO HAVE IT AT ED DEBVICS BUT THEY FUCKEN CLOSED A WHILE AGO AND I DIDNT NO THAT...SOOOO PLEASE GIVE ME SOME IDEAS..THANKS!!

DICTATOR

5:29pm: alright all u loser people who were just waiting for the dictator to update..because i havent in a while..you can all stop holding your breath--unless u died which just sucks..bc i am updating now!

here it goes:

THIS WEEKEND WAS AMAZING!!! lets start from the begginning...

Friday didnt go to school because i have been sick with this flippen cold that is going around..and my step dad says i sound like a little boy..and then sometimes i sound like a man because my voice goes either really high or really low with this cold. BUT WHATEVA ---okay so friday night one of the best nights of my life!!!!!!!

GLOS B-DAY PARTY AMAZING!!! no other word that could describe it--i met sooo many people from Peperdine! BOYS BOYS BOYS..some chill girls met glos bestfriend Shannon..shes a cool kid..oo did i mention BOYS?!?!?! So her party was in the small room at the canyon club and it was amazing..we all wore nice dresses..GLOS BOOBS WERE GINORMOUS..i still cant get over it that her boobs are real..but whatvea her friend matt ..there was actually like 5 matts but this 1 omg amazing..glo says he is gay but whatvea..and then we went back to her house all of us and we slept there..glo and i did not go to bed until 5:30!! and yess we then woke up at 8:30 give it up for 3 hours of sleep!

Sat nite--"movie night" at my house with people --we didnt watch a movie though we just drank had some food..the JSA boys went out and got KFC and brought it back to my house where it stunk up my kitchen but whateva its cool..i harassed Olin but he liked it so its okay--

Sunday night went to chuck's house to watch a movie..this time we actually did all watch a move..Eternal Sunshine--pretty good..really weird though

Monday night homework night because i had..and still have sooo much..did i mention i hate school like a fat kid hates diets..SORRY if U TOOK THAT HARSHLY--but um I DONT CARE!!--anywho yea my dce is due thurs. so i actually did need to do work..and i had econ fucken stanley..and philos to do...

Today-- More homework..though i did go to glos house with chuck where we "worked" on philos for our big dense test tom. the chapter is soo long and sooo dense its ridic. anyways yea we were working until we decided it was cocktail time..lol oo goodness yea my strawberry margaritta didnt taste so good with the apple i had just eaten like 30 seconds earlier..but its cool glo and chuck finsihed it off...

oo and by the way i am not dating brian anymore so if u see me flirting with guys--its okay im not doing anything wrong..just thought i should let y'all know --if you didnt know already..

anyways i have taken enough time away from my homework now i must go back and be the nerd i am..but i must say a good looken nerd!

dictator

by the way glo---DAMN GINA!!

9:02pm: can u get this??
Bueno tan decidi que yo no quise escribir en ingles, asi que escribo en el espanol. Acabo de pensar recientemente en como he llegado a ser tal ramera. Asi que alguien cierra a mi me dije recientemente que tengo miedo de esta solo. Y al principio yo me enfade, pero pienso su verdadero! Yo siempre tengo a un novio, tan raro como que los sonidos. Y como injusticia es lo que utilizo a mi novio, hasta que un cierto tiempo; cuando los otros tengan una fecha y entonces freno arriba con el despues. Y la unica razon que yo no me separo con el ahora es porque yo no quiero tener para ir por yo mismo a este acontecimiento!! Y mantengo el pensamiento a yo mismo como tan la injusticia que es. Pero al mismo tiempo yo no hago nada acerca de cambiar de opinion. Yo me digo que yo no soy una persona que utiliza los otros, pero son. Yo me digo que puedo estar contento con otra persona por un espacio de tiempo largo, pero puedo no. La unica persona que yo me he visto con, no quiere ser conmigo; y ha hecho eso perfectamente vacia.tan lo que debe hace? Lo sigue utilizando apenas por esa noche, o se separa con el ahora y la parada que miente a yo mismo?

dictador

9:42pm: OKAY PEOPLE I WANT TO DO A DANCE AT LIP SYNC THIS YEAR..WHOSE IN??

11:09am: is this illegal?
okay so i am at school right now..on lj. Don't know if i am allowed to be on this or if Ms. Cope will come behind me soon and tell me to leave..lets just cross our fingers shall we! Sooooo i fucked up Brian's truck last nite ..with glo and kar of course ( thanks again by the way)We ..well mainly me but i was incognito! i was wearing a black beanie and dark clothing..if a cop saw me people they would think i was off to rob someone..we had 2 freezer bags full of flower pettles( don't know if i spelled that correctly but i don't care) okay back to my story-so we TPed his car and then we took the frezzer bags and used them as flags on his antenna.! Then we took pictures of us and the car..well mainly me but whateva. They are some sexy pictures..wooot. Then as we were walken back Karen was like whats that noise- and i was like its Brian's horses..then i shinned the flash light over to them and she liked flipped out..HAHAA karen is afraid of horses..thats okay i still love you! SOOO WHAT ELSE--ooo the party in Franks class today= amazing! Sparkling Cider rules! And glo and i picked the winners for the bag contest..1st, 2nd, and 3rd. We made bags, well more like shoe boxes and wecovered them for Franks class where people can put there V-Day cards for people..Glo and i didnt make them..WERE REBELS...OOO YEA!! Some other ppl. didnt make them either but whateva were cooler! SOooo they were pretty fun..then glo and i ate chocolate..im gonna be wired all nite ..which is prb good for Brian...SRY I NO TMI!!

OK Harn just came up behind me--i freaked out i thought it was like a teacher or someone grrrr scary!

hmmm i gotmy Vice dress yest. Amazing..i like it thats all that matters..

i like oranges

i have to start my 3rd DCE this week..prb wed. cuz its due like next thurs! YES FOR PROCRASTINATION!

okay im bored now! now im just writing because it is giving me something to do so i dont have to go to PE! I told him i was going to the health office..i dont think i have actuall stayed in that class..for the whole class period in over a month..I was in Holisters room but she is like in a HORRIBLE mood because the paper is coming out this week and she kicked me out...BICTH IS GOING DOWN..I DONT CARE IF YOU LIKE HER!!

anyways i left her room and was on my way to PE when i saw harn..and she was going to the library so i was like i will go too!! so here i am typing to myself .bc im bored...hmmm can we say "LOSER"???

im hungry

im sleepy-i went to bed at 12:30

im gonna look cute tonite though im wearing my fabulous pink skirt

i like cheese

dictator

7:31pm: AMAZING WEEKEND PPL.L JSA..DANCED WITH NOT 1 BUT 2 BLACK GUYS!!---and i no what ur thinking but brian is fine with me dancing with other guys--ITS JUST DANCING..anywho it was AMAZING..i c walked up to the really hot black guy..omg soo hott just ask..ANYONE!! hhaha the freshman girls..the nice 2 jess and kelsey haha kenny's lil sister got it ON!!! i think i can speak for popo and kar when i say...im soo proud!kar i want the pics! anyways what else i dont think i have ever been that close to karen before ahha i love u kar but im never dancen with u like that again..u no what im talken about..popo thanks for getting me sick u ass! i still love u though..ohh we decided since wuwu and i are such gangsta's were meant for eachother..and this was esp. shown today when i walked downstairs and saw him and he was wearing a pink pin stripe shirt and i was wearing my pink stripe shirt from A&F!! matchen gangstas..thats how we do!

the weekend was spent by laughing at ppl..laughing at the weird guys..laughing at Busby..hearing stories from Busby bout kids he doesnt like from school..haven ppl laugh at me because i say "embarrass" wrong! shoppen --a lil..Coach (awww drool)....eating a lot..ohh spinage dip how i loved u..how my theighs still love u! ooo yeah and we deabted a little! forgot bout that detail.

soo today i got my Vice Dress woot woot its red hard to explain but i like it and if u dont..holly shit did i ask u if i cared? --NOPE i sure didn't. Sorry that was a wee bit mean but i dont sorry! Tom. is Valentines day...i dont no why we have this holiday..i think its bogus..1 day where ur suppose to show how much u care bout another person..but arent you suppose to do that everyday?!? whateva!

anyways im tierd i got like 4 hours of sleep last night--so my bed here i come!

dictator

6:40pm: Im SICK


dictator

3:44pm: wow dont i just hate hate hate people who have a problem with you, and you know they do because they ignore you and shit but then when you ask them whats wrong..their like i dont want to talk bout it!!! gosh that is soo bothersome to me...like ..hmm i dont lk u but im not gonna tell u why!! WTF MATE--and it hurts cuz i thought we were friends but ur cowardly actions are just showering me otherwise! I fucking go out of my way when you are having the worst time of ur life to comfort u--and u pull this shit! well go fuck ur self and fuck ur emotions ..if ur gonna do this then go find other people who will be there for u at every moment of every day.. cuz im done!!

dictator

12:28pm: TODAY MY PEOPLE IS FOOTBALL DAY!!!
SOOOOOooooo today is football day
What do you have to say
I woke up and went
hurray hurray
because today my people is football day
The ball will be thrown
People will be getting boned (thats for u caitlin)

Beer will be drank
Today my dads wallet will sank (lol that doesnt really go but o well)

Because today my people is superbowl 39!


woot woot--ok im done

anywho soo football! i am such a good lil girl liking sports and all!

last nite was fun brian made me dinner..cuz i can eat now!! woot woot
my recital went well i hurt me knee a lil doing the worm--they didnt put the mats down for us and we were lk wtf but we did it anyways cuz we didnt want to stall..but its cool i will live. Yest. i went out with karen..she took me to some burrito place--i dont remember the name--she said there the best burritos ever-but i didnt have one (i didnt want to spoil my appiteite for brians dinner) but i am gonna have 1 soon dont u worry..cuz i know u were!

oo yest i found out that we might have to give my puppy oliver away..i dont really wanna talk bout it but i am not a happy dictator right now.

hmm what else i havent updated in a while..ohh STECY UR GOING DOWN AT VICE HOMES

umm what else oo JSA CONGRESS THIS WEEKEND SOOO FLIPPEN AMAZING I AM .."SENATOR SHAFF"--haha who would give me such power...ME hehehe..um should be amazing i am dancing with a black guy this time..maybe the one with the feather in his hat will be there..and for all of u..lk last time..minus caitlin cuz u wont be there ..massive tear--i will be taking pics of all of u who dance with ppl of the opposite sex..or same sex..whateva floats ur boat! Then monday is v-day..i have to babysit at 8 for my rentals so that means i have brian time from 2:35-8--should be okay..prb TMI but o well sry!

umm i already do not like econ. i feel so stupid not taking AP Gov!! seriously! um kar congrats on Boulder!!--just had to throw that in there ...

and go eagels

and done

dictator

4:48pm: okay so i haven't updated in a while..today was my 1st day with stanley..wow!! "thats all i have to say about that"-forrest gump..watched it today in philos.--what a class.

anywho..next weekend is JSA CONGRESS soooo happy soo excited..arent you?? well you should be!

This weekend is going to be fun my recital is sat. morning i have to be down in bev. hills at 7!! bloody hell u no that means i have to wake up at 5..but its okay..and i am a wee bit nervous for it..not that that is anything new..my nervousness..but i think telling ppl. i dance is making me more nervous..not that anyone is coming or anything ..so logiclaly it shouldnt make me nervous. but then again who said i was a logical person?!? anywho sat nite all i have to say is 1 flippen word...................

PARTY!!!!!!!

okay now that im done with that i got my grades today in the mails ...all A's bitches mahahaha not that i have any hard classes ..well Frank but whateva..keepen my 4.0 woot woot. I looked at housing stuff last nite for SFSU--ok here is my question. WHY THE FUCK IS COLLEGE SOOO EXPENSIVE..wait dont answer yet let me pose another question/statement. IF THE US NEEDS THE YOUTH OF TODAY TO GO TO COLLEGE, SO WE CAN OBTAIN HIGH POSITION JOBS..WHICH IN THEORY PRODUCE A LOT OF MONEY..WHICH WE WOULD THEN PAY A FUCK LOAD IN TAXES...then why the hell do they make college sooo damn expensive. The reason why soooo many people can't go to nice 4 year undergrad. colleges..and even further--is because of MULA!!! and yes there are loans..and grants but hello u have tp pay back ur loans!! and for people who want to go to school past undergrad. and have to take out loans there by the time your finished with school you have almost $100,000 in loans to pay back!! ON TOP OF paying for objects..house..car..clothes..food..in the present!! GRRRR well its not like most of you have a problem with that because y'all have money but im just saying why why why? When i become dictator or even a senator..cuz thats more realistic..i am going to make it my mission to lower tuition costs and increase the chance for students to get grants..bc i dont think we should have to pay for college--well at least not the price it is at now--bc its our fucken society and gov. that really needs us to go they should pay not us!!!

wow i am a true dem.!! HELL YEA


okay im done and some what tired from that rant

dictator

5:50pm: k so lisas party was today happy birthday u ho..ur 18 my g-d watch out people!!!

last nite was bloody amazing..partying with glo and everyone best times..stecy --where shall i even start..ur halarious! and glo with ur dancing haha

i just have to say POLAN KNOCK ON DOORS BEFORE YOU OPEN IT!!!!!! learn from karen..
its all good i still love ya.

anyways ppl send me pictures from last nite please..i know y'all have some.

got to go dinner

ohh by the way sat. is recital time woot woot i am eating sooo much sat nite for dinner!!!


dictator

9:29pm: k so my sister sent this to me and i think its halarious-



>Mattel Inc. today announces the release of Limited
>Edition Barbie Dolls, specifically for the Northern
>California Market:
>Pleasanton Barbie: This princess Barbie is only sold
>at the Stoneridge Mall. She comes with an assortment
>of Kate Spade handbags, a Lexus, a lapdog and a cookie
>cutter house. Options include tummy tuck, face lift
>and a workaholic Ken.
>
>San Ramon Barbie: This trendy homemaker Barbie is
>available with the Lexus SUV or Ford Windstar minivan,
>gets lost easily, and has no full time occupation or
>secondary education. Traffic jamming cell phone sold
>separately. Optional matching gym outfit available.
>
>Richmond Barbie: This recently paroled Barbie comes
>with a 9mm handgun, a Ray Lewis knife, a low-rider
>Chevrolet with oversized wheels and tinted windows,
>and Meth Lab Ken.
>
>Pinole Barbie: This Barbie is the wanna-be San Ramon
>Barbie, only she usually carries a knife to stab her
>fellow Barbies in the back with. She's available with
>cell phone, SUV and a drink in her hand.
>
>El Sobrante Barbie: This Barbie is truly one of a
>kind. Comes with Biker Ken & his Harley and a replica
>of the Capri Club. She only hangs out with Ken because
>he has a bike and when he's not around she's looking
>for another man - who has a bike. Watch out! She
>usually doesn't care if he has a wife or girlfriend.
>Otherwise known as Scooter Tramp Barbie.
>
>Folsom Barbie: This yuppie Barbie comes with choice
>of a BMW sports car or a souped up Hummer 2, Starbucks
>cup, credit card and shallow Ken.
>
>Sacramento Barbie: This Barbie comes with an
>exclusive set of luggage since she is always traveling
>to the Bay area or to Reno/Tahoe; very rarely stays at
>home. She comes with two basketball jerseys since
>she's an avid Kings/Monarchs fan. River Cats Ken
>available separately. State Worker version has a look
>of perpetual concern on her face over the disposition
>of her politically-driven employment. Also comes with
>seasonal allergy kit.
>
>Stockton Barbie: This white-trash model comes in
>Wrangler jeans two sizes too small, a NASCAR shirt,
>big hair, a six pack of Coors Light and a Hank, Jr. CD
>set. She can spit over 5 feet and she can kick Ken's
>ass when she's drunk. A pickup is available with
>stick-on Confederate flag bumper stickers.
>
>Tahoe Barbie: This collagen injected, rhinoplastic
>Barbie still has not learned that you can't wear a
>leopard print ski outfit without looking passe, even
>if you are actually skiing.
>
>Berkeley Barbie: This Barbie actually comes in two
>variations. One has long gray hair and archless feet,
>sandals with white socks, no makeup and a mutt. The
>other version has frizzy hair, a dingy white tank top,
>low cut jeans and scratch-n-sniff armpits.
>
>Bakersfield Barbie: This tobacco chewing,
>brassy-haired Barbie still has not learned that you
>can't wear high-heeled sandals from Payless with no
>pedicure and without breaking a heel and falling while
>you chase your beer-gutted, hollow gold-chain-wearing
>boyfriend. Her make-up is dark red lip liner with lips
>covered in a sparkly pink color or no fill-in at all.
>Her ensemble includes low-rise acid-washed jeans with
>assorted colored G-strings that stick out the back of
>her jeans, a white barely-there see-through shirt. Her
>long, layered hair is bleached/highlighted and BIG.
>Accessories include: CD-player equipped with Bon Jovi
>and rusty old Ford pick up.
>
>Texas Transplant Barbie: This bitch of a Barbie comes
>with a Ford SUV (Texas plates), a knife to stab other
>Barbies in the back, and tons of makeup. Beer-swilling
>Carnivore Ken sold separately.
>
>They are working on developing an "Oakland Barbie",
>but she keeps getting shot.
>
>Piedmont Barbie: This True Blonde shops exclusively
>in Walnut Creek and Carmel. She drives her Land Rover
>(sold separately) to the Oakland Public Library. She
>has an MBA from Stanford but has never worked outside
>the home. Her child stroller is bigger than your house
>and her tennis trophies are discreetly hidden behind
>CEO Ken's golf trophies. She knows enough Spanish
>toalk with the nanny; Tagalog to speak to the cook;
>and Chinese, Vietnamese and Korean, to talk with the
>gardener, house painter, and housekeeper respectively.
>She is a lifelong member of the Junior League and her
>Piedmont estate on Sea View Drive is featured in
>chitectural Digest. Her family owns a winery in Napa,
>but she buys cases of "2-Buck Chuck" at Trader Joe's,
>hence the need for the rear-loading Land Rover. Her
>dirty little secret?? She's a closet Democrat.

5:25pm: DANCE OFF OHH YEAH
okay so darkness and i decided we are haven a DANCE OFF at VICE..its a done deal. and since i will be wearing a dress i cant break dance..but then its somewhat fair to her --we will be somewhat equal. until i beat her ass..hahhaha much love stecy.
oh and i am sorry i disappointed u about brian...tear

dictator